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How on earth have I only discovered this thread?! I absolutely love a good old chat about religion.
I was raised Roman Catholic, attended the local Catholic schools, went to church once a week, was even an alter server, the whole shabang. Heck I remember on the old forum I would genuinely get offended by religious threads as they inevitably turned into a slog of religion bashing. I'd have described myself as a pretty religious person, although I never adhered to biblical literalism, and I think it's quite clear some books in the Bible are not meant to be interpreted that way.
At GCSE 'Religious Education' at a Catholic school is literally Bible study, learn the canonical gospels, sacraments, and learn very basic Church teachings on ethical issues and that's the exam covered. Ridiculous. I never really had anyone ever challenge my faith in any sort of intellectual way, so rather naturally I believed exactly what I'd been taught my whole life. Then for A Levels I moved to a secular college and Religious Studies was one of my options. For the first time properly in my life I was engaging with religion and why I believed what I did. At first I was a staunch defender of religion in a roomful of atheists (although the teacher was religious, she was excellent and impartial) but I was starting to notice that at times when further challenged about things I was unable to come up with an answer that I found satisfactory. But I was still a Catholic, just questioning little bits here and there.
Then we encountered the problem of evil. For people unaware it is in a nutshell:
1. God is omnipotent.
2. God is omniscient.
3. God is omnibenevolent.
4. An omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent diety could see evil, stop evil, and would have the will to do this.
5. Evil exists.
6. Therefore there can not be an omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent diety as portrayed in the Abrahamic religions.
This for me caused a massive problem. I read pretty much every theodicy out there in an attempt to find a solution to this, I didn't find any that provided a satisfactory explanation, and I sure as hell couldn't come up with one. Therefore I gradually phased out of my Christian beliefs. Incidentally one of my atheist mates on that course converted to the Orthodox Church a year later.
That was about eight years ago, I would now class myself as very much a confused agnostic! I know exactly what I don't believe, but I have no idea what I do. For some unexplainable reason when I redecorated my room I made sure I still had two crucifixes placed on shelves and artwork of St Francis hanging up. I've also taken much more of an interest in religion. I undertook my Masters at King's College London, they offered the 'Associateship of King's College', a separate award concerning religion and ethics which is genuinely the most interesting thing I have ever done. It was pretty weird as well being one of the sort of atheistic (for want of a better word) ones amongst a number of religious people. I can also put AKC after my name now, what an utterly pretentious tosser I am!
Over the last year and a half I lost my dad to cancer and then my gran (his mum) to a stroke, although after my dad died she deteriorated mentally at an alarming rate. She was very much your stereotypical devout Irish Catholic, my nan is about as devout as you can get, as is my mum. My extended family (not that I see them ever) are all Catholic as fuck. Now it's somewhat surreal going through a personal tragedy and seeing everyone around you praying, turning to God for answers that invariably do not arrive. Seeing the priest administering last rites and everyone fervently focused on prayer is one of the most surreal and empty experiences I've ever had in my life.
Blimey this post has dragged on far longer than the original paragraph I envisaged. And it's almost 6am. Probably best to stop here and save any actual contribution to the thread for a later date.
I was raised Roman Catholic, attended the local Catholic schools, went to church once a week, was even an alter server, the whole shabang. Heck I remember on the old forum I would genuinely get offended by religious threads as they inevitably turned into a slog of religion bashing. I'd have described myself as a pretty religious person, although I never adhered to biblical literalism, and I think it's quite clear some books in the Bible are not meant to be interpreted that way.
At GCSE 'Religious Education' at a Catholic school is literally Bible study, learn the canonical gospels, sacraments, and learn very basic Church teachings on ethical issues and that's the exam covered. Ridiculous. I never really had anyone ever challenge my faith in any sort of intellectual way, so rather naturally I believed exactly what I'd been taught my whole life. Then for A Levels I moved to a secular college and Religious Studies was one of my options. For the first time properly in my life I was engaging with religion and why I believed what I did. At first I was a staunch defender of religion in a roomful of atheists (although the teacher was religious, she was excellent and impartial) but I was starting to notice that at times when further challenged about things I was unable to come up with an answer that I found satisfactory. But I was still a Catholic, just questioning little bits here and there.
Then we encountered the problem of evil. For people unaware it is in a nutshell:
1. God is omnipotent.
2. God is omniscient.
3. God is omnibenevolent.
4. An omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent diety could see evil, stop evil, and would have the will to do this.
5. Evil exists.
6. Therefore there can not be an omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent diety as portrayed in the Abrahamic religions.
This for me caused a massive problem. I read pretty much every theodicy out there in an attempt to find a solution to this, I didn't find any that provided a satisfactory explanation, and I sure as hell couldn't come up with one. Therefore I gradually phased out of my Christian beliefs. Incidentally one of my atheist mates on that course converted to the Orthodox Church a year later.
That was about eight years ago, I would now class myself as very much a confused agnostic! I know exactly what I don't believe, but I have no idea what I do. For some unexplainable reason when I redecorated my room I made sure I still had two crucifixes placed on shelves and artwork of St Francis hanging up. I've also taken much more of an interest in religion. I undertook my Masters at King's College London, they offered the 'Associateship of King's College', a separate award concerning religion and ethics which is genuinely the most interesting thing I have ever done. It was pretty weird as well being one of the sort of atheistic (for want of a better word) ones amongst a number of religious people. I can also put AKC after my name now, what an utterly pretentious tosser I am!
Over the last year and a half I lost my dad to cancer and then my gran (his mum) to a stroke, although after my dad died she deteriorated mentally at an alarming rate. She was very much your stereotypical devout Irish Catholic, my nan is about as devout as you can get, as is my mum. My extended family (not that I see them ever) are all Catholic as fuck. Now it's somewhat surreal going through a personal tragedy and seeing everyone around you praying, turning to God for answers that invariably do not arrive. Seeing the priest administering last rites and everyone fervently focused on prayer is one of the most surreal and empty experiences I've ever had in my life.
Blimey this post has dragged on far longer than the original paragraph I envisaged. And it's almost 6am. Probably best to stop here and save any actual contribution to the thread for a later date.